It’s Sunday. I’m sitting in the comfiest armchair in my house and listening to my mom and sister cooking in the kitchen. Music from Woody Allen films is playing in the background and everything seems to have fallen in to place.
But lo and behold I remember that today is Sunday – that means that tomorrow is Monday and that means I have to start doing all the papers that are due next week. I start thinking about university, what I want to study, where, will I even get in to a good university, my sisters are so smart and could get in any college they wanted to but here I am hoping that I even get in.
So there I am – sitting perfectly still in an armchair and someone asks what I’m thinking about. And I answer – nothing. Little do they know that my brain is having a mini panic attack. It’s just that it would be so hard to explain all of my emotions – and they probably couldn’t even find a solution to them. And I know why. Because all of these things I keep worrying about haven’t even happened yet.
There is so much pressure in today’s millenial world to have everything figured out. You’re supposed to be outgoing, crazy, weird, but at the same time calm and collected. And I know that most of you will say “don’t give in to the pressure” to be perfectly honest we all get pressured. Some more than others – some less.
My point is how can a 16 yr old with next to no life experience have everything figured out? How can I know what I want to do with my life when in school I can’t even disagree with a teachers perspective on a novel because it will lower my grades and ruin my chances on good end-of-semester results?
To be honest this post probably made no sense because I didn’t even know that I was going to write anything until a few minutes ago. So I’m sorry, but I just needed to let all the steam out.
I know that I don’t have much of a point. All of these thoughts/emotions just suddenly caame to me.
with hope that the next post won’t be as depressing,
elizabeth
October 30, 2016 at 10:51 am
Those mini panic attacks will continue to happen all through your adulthood. Even when you feel like you’ve figured things out, something will change and it’ll make you question every decision you’ve made this far. So just try to relax and take life one day at a time! ☺️ Happy Blogging!
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October 30, 2016 at 10:53 am
Thanks for the heads up👍
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October 28, 2016 at 8:40 pm
No one has it figured out–you just try a whole bunch of new things and go with whatever doesn’t fail horribly 🙂
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October 28, 2016 at 6:36 pm
I remember how hard it was trying to figure out what I was going to do with my life after school! I know it is super overwhelming, but just take one step at a time, and it will all work its self out 🙂
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October 28, 2016 at 6:07 pm
It isn’t depressing to let your steam off…
It’s normal for teenagers to do so😅
Anyways expressing was done nicely…
Keep it up👍
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October 28, 2016 at 6:10 pm
Thank you so much – that means a lot
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October 28, 2016 at 6:10 pm
You’re welcome☺☺
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October 28, 2016 at 3:16 pm
Not knowing who you are or where you are going is quite normal and not depressing.
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October 28, 2016 at 3:27 pm
Thanks for the support – even though it hasn’t been that long since I wrote this I feel a lot better than I did at that time
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